Sometimes I just stop, take a look at this little miracle laid in front of me, and think wow! I helped to create that, I hold him close so close I breath in this little body. I lay my ear near to him so I can hear him breathing, I am lost in this moment, I am lost in time just me and my baby boy. Suddenly all the chaos if life is gone I stand and dance with my boy. I hold his head close as to protect him from the world. He nuzzles into me and I hold him closer still.
I am blessed beyond words, nobody told me how special a newborn is. Nobody told me how short that time is. I want to pause the time, but I also am full of dreams of tomorrow. I wonder when he will walk, when he will say his first word, who will he look like. Its all too exciting then he moves that little newborn reflex and I remember he is still so small. Still so fragile
Sometimes I hold him and see the love in his eyes, his eyes widen at the sight of his mummy. We are locked together sharing these special times. His eyes light up and beams a huge smile it melts my heart, my legs turn to jelly and I am caught for hours just staring at his face. I hold every finger and he grasps me back. I kiss every toe and I know how lucky I am to be your mum. I realise how strong love is and I will love you no matter what, and what ever time.
So I will cherish it, I will leave the washing up and hoovering, because times like this may never come by again. Time just gets faster but I will cling to whats left and wont let it be taken.
The Joy of a newborn.