As much as I love breast feeding I also feel like I hate it. As easy as it is I sometimes loath that I always fed the baby and that I never seem to get a break from it. I know that sounds incredibly selfish but I often feel like I have had enough (usually at 4am after trying to settle a baby back to sleep for the 5th time that night. Don't get me wrong I also love breast feeding, I love that I don't need to take anything with me and I can feed him anywhere I don't have to warm bottles its great. It just is so hard sometimes!
I dont always feel like this its just when Little bear is going through a clingy phase. We recently decided to introduce a bottle at night time to try and get him to sleep and so that my husband could feed him and put him to bed. Which was going well till all of a sudden out of know where he wont take a bottle. He gets cross spits the milk out and usually falls asleep out of exhaustion or I give in and fed him. I am not sure weather its an developmental age thing or he just wants mummy. He wont even take a dummy anymore.
So with that I am stuck breast feeding for the time being, I often wonder how good my milk is I am busy alot of the time and he seems to forever be feeding never getting full. Sometimes I see that little face suckling away and I am overcome with so much love, I remember when he was born and he latched on straight away I said to my mum "I cant see why anyone wouldn't want to breast feed its so beautiful". Its true the bond of giving your child nourishment is amazing it brings tears to my eyes thinking about it, I know not everyone can so I am so privileged.
Little bear was sleeping up to 8 hours at a time but all of a sudden has been waking up every few hours and we are unsure why? Last night he had no bottle and just breast milk and slept for nearly 8 hours then settled well after, but the few before he was awake alot!
So if you have any help or advice I would be happy to hear.