Monday 20 January 2014

Finding joy in the small things! - Becoming a mum to my Awesome boy!

When I was a teenager my dreams where that I wanted to work in London in an office, go out on Fridays and Saturdays then meet the love of my life. How different could my life be from my childhood dreams. My life was changed when I was 17, I was changed and for the better by my little baby. I never expected to become a mum so early in life, as a teenager I was a bit lost in reality and suffered with low self esteem.

I thought filling my life with things would fill this empty hole, having a boyfriend would fill it but my esteem was low who would date me, I met Pants dad when I was 15 immature and not knowing of the world. I then a year later fell pregnant. I was pleased even though it wasnt planned I thought this may fill this huge hole in my life. 

Then a few months later my life was turned upside down, suddenly I was responsible for this little life, suddenly I was a mum! It was the scariest time of my life, I never would be alone again, How will I go out with out this little boy. It was only then I decided I wanted better for me and my son, I didnt want to be on benefits like other young mums so I decided to look into getting a career. 

See you may not think its possible, but my little Pants changed my life, he gave me direction and purpose in life, he helped me strive to be a better person and get me out of the life that I was in. I am incredibly blessed to have Pants even though life wasnt how I planned it has been awesome. 

Sadly it didn't last with Pants dad and I spent a few years as a single mum so It was just me and Pants. We joined a church and were not judged for who we were and treated as if we were normal. I wasnt a teen mum but I was me, I found Jesus and was Sara who is loved. Suddenly that hard exterior started to come down, I had friends and was part of an awesome family who looked out for us two. 

Also life didn't stop there a few years later when Pants was three he played the vital part of helping me meet Matt, The love of my life and we were introduced by my awesome Son. I never knew it then when Pants was talking to a random man that he would be interested in me. Little broken me, little slowly understanding the love and grace given to me by Jesus. That such humble man would like me and love me. It was all thanks to Pants. 

Im not saying having a baby young is a great idea, no its not but god makes all things good. He turned mine and Pants life out of a rut and turned it into something special. We are now a family of 5 and if you asked me 5 years ago what my life would be like now I would tell you you are mad!  

Aston you are amazing and mummy loves you so so much! 


16 comments:

  1. awww honey this gave me goosebumps reading! what a beautiful post and a beautiful tribute to your little man!

    thanks for linking up and sharing with #MagicMoments

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  2. Thank you for sharing your beautiful story! It's amazing how children can turn our lives around, for the better. It certainly happened to me. #whatsthestory

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  3. What a truly beautiful post - brought a lump to my throat. So pleased you have found your 'happy ever after' #whatsthestory

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    1. Ha yes but this is still early on our adventure!

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  4. What a lovely story! I had my boys young too, not quite as young but it turned my world upside down! Having two children by 21 was never what I had planned, but life works itself out. Love the photo at the end too! lol x

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    1. yes its funny how life turns out, I wouldnt have it any other way!

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  5. Awesome post about your son. Love the picture of him! Looks like he was having a blast. What a beautiful loving story.

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  6. That is such a great post. I am so happy for you that your life took a turn for the better. I think being a young mum makes you really choose, between taking responsibility and growing up and, well, not. You chose the best option and raised a wonderful little boy. Good for you :)
    #PoCoLo

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    1. yes it sure does, I grew up so much crazy though when I think of it!

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  7. It sounds like everything turned out wonderfully for you - and I love that your son helped find your new partner :) Grace sort of did similar for me! Thank you for linking to PoCoLo x

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  8. Ahhh what a beautiful post almost made me cry. I am so glad you found your happily ever after and that Pants made such a great impact on you, your life, and playing a part in what made it a fairytale. Amazing. Love the photo too hilarious. So cute.Thanks for linking up to Share With Me #sharewithem

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  9. This is such a lovely post. It must have been so difficult becoming a mum at such a young age. But it sounds like you did an amazing job and are a fabulous mum. Your little boy Pants is as blessed to have you as his mummy as you are to have him as a son. That is a wonderful, wonderful thing. Hugs Mrs H xxxx #sharewithme

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